the cave

Just want to let you know that I made it through Monday and Tuesday of my Pac-Man (chemo) Level 2. Praying for high scores as the chemo makes it way through my body. Monday night was a tough night. I didn’t sleep well and got sick once. But today (Wednesday) I’m feeling much better after a wonderful night’s sleep and no sickness. 

Thank you so much for your words of encouragement, cards, generosity through gift cards, packages, etc. I’ve been so blessed and overwhelmed by your love and support. Thanks for taking the time to read my posts and to join me in this journey, especially through prayer. 

This situation has been so unique and even though I’ve been through cancer before, I was in a different place with my circumstances and having to trust God just the same, yet with different things. After reading this book recently, I resonated with John Ortberg’s use of describing David’s time in a cave before he became king (you can find a portion of this story in 1 Samuel 22-24). 

Here is a quote from his book, If You Want to Walk on Water You Have to Get Out of the Boat: 

“Sometimes you are in a cave, and no human action is able to get you out. There is something you can’t fix, can’t heal, or can’t escape, and all you can do is trust God. Finding ultimate refuge in God means you become so immersed in His presence, so convinced of His goodness, so devoted to His lordship that you find even the cave is a perfectly safe place to be because He is there with you.”

As I experience cave-time, I can’t say this is my thought every moment of every day, but I sure want to pray it and desire it and live it: “Then I pray to You, O Lord. I say, ‘You are my place of refuge. You are all I really want in life’ ” (Psalm 142:5). 

Not sure yet exactly what these cave-moments will lead to, or teach me or how they will refine me, but I’ve having to choose each day to trust the One who knows and sees beyond the right now. 

Hope you have a great week!! 

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