I’ve heard many share words they selected for 2015. I think about words all the time. Any given week, my selected word would change a handful of times. Instead of telling you about a revelation I had and the word I desire to carry me through the new year, let me share the word on my heart today:
Enough. When I hear that word in my head, I hear so many different tones. I hear a painful cry of desperation. Or I hear an exasperated “Enough; I’m done!” tone. Or what about a contented expression when I realize my eyes deceived me, and I actually hold so much more than I first thought. God has given me just enough.
We live in a culture where we never have enough. Enough is bigger than the Grand Canyon. It’s found in craving everything we don’t have and think will satisfy. Time, money, the next season of life, the next gadget, the next tropical vacation. I often find myself on the enough hunt. If only . . . then I’d have enough. Then I’d be content. Yeah, right! I never am. There is always something else. There will always be something else. Sometimes my longings and hunting for enough exhaust me. Why does enough quickly slip out of my hands? Why can’t I measure up and be enough today?
I was never meant to be enough. I’m more like a leaky jar, who constantly seeks and needs refilling.
“We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves”
(2 Corinthians 4:7).
I’d rather you not see my holes. Sometimes I try to cover them with my fingers. However, when I cover them, I’m only missing an opportunity to leak Jesus. HE is enough! I wonder if He has a name meaning enough. That will be something I research this year. He is larger than my Grand-Canyon-cavernous neediness. He wants me to throw in the towel and say, “Enough!! I’ve had enough of trying to be enough on my own.” He wants me to hole-y and holy. He wants me to be still to soak and steep in His presence.
I’m not sure what 2015 holds. I still have daily moments when I don’t understand the now and wonder what God is up to. I miss what was. I ask, How can this be enough? How can You be enough? I want You to be enough. Teach me. Show me. Help me to trust You.
Take some time to soak in His presence. Be filled by Him. Let Him leak from your life. Let’s allow Him to be Enough.